Sick of this Shit!
I've tried, believe me I've tried... I've tried to sort things out whilst being the least intrusive in peoples' lives. I'm tired of being so concerned about everyone else but me. No one seems to care about my status, so to that I say "fuck 'em!" I hate hearing the same cliche, "I like partying with my friends and being stupid." What the fuck? Is that it? Is that all there is to your life? I don't want to associate myself with anyone who lives by that motto. It's pathetic and overused. Can't anyone be original? I'm tired and I'm shaking with anger, I have to go elsewhere to blow off steam.
Snowday
So we woke up to a truly "white Christmas." They say the last recorded snowfall in the Valley had been on Valentine's day of 1895. Let's do the math: 2004-1895 = 109 years. Wow! It was truly something that I had not expected. I mean, I was expecting a freeze, lots of ice, but instead it snowed. People were super ecstatic, they were building small snowmen on the hoods of their cars. Not only that but they were also throwing snowballs at each other. I didn't really get that thrilled. I don't know why, maybe I should have but I wasn't. Instead I simply marvelled at what a great site it was and how some people went through their whole lifetimes without seeing a damn snowfall. Well, that's all I got to say...
Just Blogging
Can you believe the semester is almost over? How long ago was it that it started? Well, unfortunately I'm not doing too well this semester. It's that damn internship I took this semester; sucks by the way. I need to find a way to make this blog even more interesting. I just don't know how. Maybe if I write poetry? Maybe...
Melancholic
It's funny how a mood swing can come over you all of a sudden, not to say that I'm manic in any way, it just happens all of a sudden and seldom. It's not a bad thing if you really think about it because in the end you learn a little about yourself (if you're paying attention). Like today I was reminiscent about the life I lived a few years back, I was so care free and had tremendous energy to expend. However life caught up with me and now I find myself bogged down with so many responsibilities that some days just seem endless. I don't find joy in my life anymore like I used to, even if I had a million friends to go out with everyday it wouldn't change how I feel. It's hard determining the cause of my unhappiness, but it seems that I'm just not fulfilling some hidden need of mine. I become easily annoyed and that's not good, I don't have the same level of concentration that I used to have and that's not good either. I've sat down to allow myself time to do other things, but that hasn't helped and the only real thing that somehow satisfies me in a way is when I'm completely alone. Somehow being alone doesn't seem to be a healthy thing to do, simply because I don't want to shut myself out from the world. Yet it brings a sense of calm over me, I focus on my emotions and feelings and that's about it, nothing else! It's weird, I've somehow stooped to a level I've never had to stoop to before. Laters...
Day after birthday
So here I am. The summer semester just ended and a new one begins. Today is the day after my birthday, pretty cool huh? I just came back from watching Spiderman 2 and I have to say, it was better than I expected. The part that really got to me, in the sense that it had a lasting impression, almost uncanny, was the part where Kirsten Dunst tells Toby McGuire, "isn't it time someone saved your life?" The reason it gets me is because I've always been waiting for someone to come after me and take care of me. It seems I'm always the one to initiate things, only to have them ended by someone else. Well, I thought I'd mention it since it got me thinking about things... Laters
Day before birthday
Yeah, so tomorrow I turn 27. Whopee! Yet I'm stuck here at home finishing my Accounting homework trying to rack up sufficient points to pass the damn class. The semester ends on Tuesday and it's just like me to wait until the last minute to fix things up. I haven't had an ounce of rest, and not matter how hard I try to keep up something always seems to get in the way and deviate me from the direction I'm heading in. Anyway, about my birthday right? Well, I'm not too thrilled because it seems like time is flying and again I'm trying my hardest to catch up, with no luck. I don't know how I'll do it if things actually slow down, there's just so many things I want to do and I've been used to this kind of life for so long. Maybe when I actually get my wish to come true (for things to slow down) I won't know what to do, cause I'm so used to doing things in such a fast paced world. Laters.
End of Summer I Term
Yeah, so the end of the semester is right around the corner. Tuesday to be exact. How well have I done this semester? Not too well. Frankly I thought I'd do better, guess I'm just burnt out from all this studying. I didn't go to my Intermediate Accounting class for about 2 weeks! I'm just so tired of all this bullshit. Why do I need to learn so much? I think we should transform these colleges into trade schools, you know? Like, learn by actually doing, not through lectures. Well, so much for wishful thinking. Anyway that's all I have to say for now I'll keep you posted on what happens with my grades.
